[Wo]man on the moon: The Before

If you're wondering about the title know that I'm zoning to kid cudi's Man on the man mixtape...

"Hating niggas can't hate leave em all stumped/They gotta like a nigga call me OBAMA/ Not a hype beast while you beast for the hype/Yea I'm the underdog, story of my life..." (Is there any love? By kid cudi ft Wale)

Is there any love in this world? <---- In my world there is and I'm so very grateful.

Today on the last day of January I will be spitting as a semi finalist in the ny knicks poetry slam hoping to come out of it as something more than just a finalist with a white envelope.

Its not about the competition what I do is how I survive.

I wanted to write how I felt before the stage and then after. So its morning and I should still be asleep!! Damn dimitri. Lol. Mister Saintvil (saintvil.blogspot.com) called me at 8am when I went to bed at 5am. Still love him though. And can't wait until I see him later.

Went to the bx yesterday for the first semis special shoutout to my lil 'sis' Kiara, my angel Janine and Ceez who all killed it which is why they are finalists now! YAY!! I screamed so much sitting next to Dj Reborn. I should drink some tea, I sound terrible.

And I wanna say to Whitley (myexistenceasme.blogspot.com)...mama you may not have won but you did yo thang. You're an inspiration to me and I love you (a lot).

Ty's home!!! Can't wait to see my twin later. I love her (cherubindisguise.blogspot.com). She's my other half, for real. Wordsmith aka. My pokeDEX (lmao) is also escorting me today for support. What a blessed lil woman I am.

I'm gonna do my thang whether I win or not. No regrets. I'm doing the poem in my heart dedicated to that boy who's life helped pen it. Where ever he is I hope he feels it. I'm gonna get free and put myself back in july 2008 at Brave New Voices. That was real and what its all about. I promised whitley I wouldn't read the intro to The Alchemist until right before I slam. I remember lady! *smiles*

"My heart thump not from being nervous sometimes I'm thinking God made me special here on purpose. So all the while till I'm gone make my words important..." -Kid cudi

I think that track is called Ready for the funeral someone clarify that! Track number 6. Whatever the name the opening lyrics really hit home just now.

I have to speak for the ones who don't have a voice. That's such a responsibility...but one I take on humbly.

Going to zone & G.I.T.S.
Peace,
Bluebelle