Monday, October 19, 2009

Be Where You Are *VA edition*

I'm in VA for exactly 24hrs to perform at this new open mic For Love Of Words (FLOW). Spent this morning in the SUB at Hampton University ppl watching. When my mind began to drift...

I'm one of those rare adaptable people who can almost envision and/or place themselves everywhere. I couldn't help but to see myself here in VA. what kind of place would i live? what college i would go to?? Most interestingly, what kind of a man would i meet. *chuckles*

I saw a strong black southern man with a nice family and maybe a slight accent which made me uneasy to say the least. Since in ny I like "alternative, original, artsy'' guys no matter their race.

It made question alot of things: Do women like me know what they want?? Is your soulmate anywhere you are?

(Here's the kicker) Does location really affect your preference in a mate??

Think on this,
Bluebelle

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

A gift for you: Kenna

Today was a rough day. It started with crying and screaming but after zoning out to Kenna I felt better. So here's a gift to my readers who may be feeling the weight of the world on them. Mercury's Retrograde may be over but thats the end of rough times.

So when you feel like that, go turn this up REALLY loud and dance, let it pulsate through you...

Out of Control (State of emotion) by Kenna



Peace & Blessings,
Bluebelle

Friday, October 2, 2009

Break a heart, Break a macbook

"I'm glad i can identify my own weakness..."

If only everyone could do that, life would be smooth. I just spent 2hrs in the wee morning talking to a friend who couldn't understand why people couldn't come with disclaimer warnings.

Do you think you would look at someone differently if you knew what kind of person they were upfront?

I once dated a guy who was a walking disclaimer and while it was refreshing it also scared me. For the first time i wasn't crazy! He forgot my birthday like he said he would. He worked crazy hours as promised. Worried about his family in silence like he was taught. Yet, he also showed me what 'getting to know a person' really entailed.

Is that what I wanted? To know everything in the room before i opened the door?

Its better than lying or manipulating...or is it the same? Would revealing too much or hiding it get you in the same predicament?? Left pondering these things as memories (or evidence) with a broken heart, a hammer and a vengence...

If I break your macbook in a yard in the middle of the night and no one's around to hear it, Was our whole relationship a lie?

Peace Earthlings,
BlueBelle