The [Blue] Soloist...

They told me to be alone, embrace solitude. "Your guard doesn't exist". "You can't trust everyone, not all are deserving".

I'm not strong enough. I love too willingly. I put my nose where I shouldn't. Everything is a poem to me and life just aint that pretty. Find a way to vent. Stop bottling your feelings. Trust us, trust no one. Live without a care while caring.

I've cried written poems accepted my mistakes turned my phone off then on again prayed read books spent more time with myself & family pretended not to give a F*&K but I have to live my own life.

I know what is wrong with me. I understand that I am not perfect which is why I took my beating like a man. I will be greater after this and I am ready.

This, you can say is my 7 day summary. Why I've run from blogging, hidden in the shadows nursing my wounds but I'm back. Better. More humbled & more blessed than before. I could care less what the voices say to me now...

"F**K em, f**k em, f**k em even if they're celibate" (Lil wayne)

Whitley, I've finished The alchemist and we need to talk. Janine pray for me, love.

Piecing it together,
BlueBelle

The aftermath.

The video of my performance saturday.
I lost, alot of things in the past few days.
But I have gained so much more.
So judge for yourself because I'm going to lay it here
Open.

Leave comments, I'm going to be alone now.
That's something I have to work on.

Peace (of mind) Earthlings,
Bluebelle